yep i just got older few weeks ago. i feel okay. though dad just want me to get married. still looking for the fixed permanent donor slash investor :)..
looking back two years ago... i was outside this building. wishing for the day they called me for interview. now i'm inside. everyday still come to office and grateful that God never fails to listen and give in the perfect timing. the truth is this is the second time living-my-dream moment. first time in the radio, many years ago.
next step... thought i should make my parents happy. get married and all that stuffs. dont know if i'm actually ready for it. until now, dont know how i can find out i'm ready for it either. its not easy and i dont wanna tango with a weird player. just want a simple guy and live supporting each other. personally and extensively. hopefully he has world wide heart which can contain my world wide ambition and dreams.
i'm scared of a lot of things. maybe i see to many bad things about marriage. but if i wait longer, i know i will just opt out. career will surely get better. and automatically financial stability will enable total independence. by that time, the significant other will not be a must, or even an option.
the days surely not looking good. divorce rate is rising. me is just another old-school mind. to get married once for a life time. cant go to that boat thinking im gonna fix it on the way. cant go into tango thinking im gonna find another to tango when i'm not happy.
this thing about me is like a melting pot combination. you can find everything, and it comes into being into myself. no manual sold so better find the setting and work on it.
